University Life...Love It or Hate It?

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It's been a long time since i last updated this blog which was first created out of boredom and curiosity...well curiosity killed the cat u know. So today is like a deja vu where I got nothing to do except for talking to me myself. Its hard to admit that I got caught talking to myself tons of times but dont get mislead by this statement cause I definitely dont have a split personality or on the verge of insanity..In case of misunderstanding, I want to made it clear that I can be a ball of negativity sometimes, that's why I need to have my own session with myself like holding disscussions with my innerself, sometimes nothing beats your own counsel.

So, this is just for sharing. I'm currently studying in Uitm Shah Alam for Bachelor of Applied Languange Hons. (English) for Professional Communication. Honestly speaking, I havent get a grip on what is this course is about. Many find it weird when I said this but I cant even explain why is this happening. Sorry if you find me irritating but I'm just saying that my result is not that bad to the point that I'm not qualified for any courses better than this n also not very good according to my family's standard (hint- it's above 3.50). I know that  I even qualified for any engineering courses. I let you decide whether this is just a wrong choice of course or this is my destinied path. It is hard to explain yet harder to experience. Just to be clear that it is my fifth choice in UPU...maybe I was just too confident with my earlier choices that I dont even bother to make a research on this course.

Unsatisfied with this result, I applied for chemical engineering in Unikl n of course I got it since its an IPTS. Then, I had to make a desicion between Uitm n Unikl. After a few tearful weeks, I came up with a desicion, thanks to my parents. Uitm...you have been chosen,hehe. So, here I am,currently bedridden out of boredom in Kolej Mawar. First off, not a very comfortable room  I got here...I mean if it were to be compared to Uitm Puncak Alam's hostels. Not complaining but my locker here is like half of my previous locker in Puncak  Alam,but what can i do...sobs~Putting aside those kind of things, here comes the good part. Uitm Shah Alam is located in the middle of a city, you can say it is well equipped with shopping centre n restaurants...heaven! Today i went to seksyen 2 to grab some lunch which is like minutes away from Kolej Mawar. Went there by bus... n its free!Oohhh...etika delta di hatiku.

Even so, still cant confirm whether this is the right choice of my life. maybe i need to go to the classes first, then i can decide..neway, class starts tomorrow n i need to be mentally prepared for it so daaa...

#going into self-isolated mode

Bored n Pissed Off

ahhh...it's been a long time since i last updated my blog.Just because i'm so damn lazy that i cant even write...haha. Usually i only update my blog when i am depressed n need someone to talk to like...now, idk but it seems that all the things that are currently happening around me are so annoying. Lately the lecturers keep asking for group work which is the most annoying thing that i've ever done. What's more is when looking for groupmates,everyone just gave some kind of hateful answers when i asked "which group r u gonna be in?' I seriously dont know why i hate it sooo much when people said "x tau"...maybe im just an emo person but like seriously....I just want to finish my work asap w/o hurting any people's feelings, how i wish it'll be a solo work. I think i'll do just fine by myself but i guess that's how university life is, every work is by group n teamwork is wat counts...n u know wat? im too lazy too finished up my story n i got latest  ep of running man to watch,so, till then....

Memories In Ireland

Yeay,my 2nd post!!!! Hmmm...lets go back to my memories in Jan 2012 when i followed my eldest sis,my bro-in-law n my niece to Ireland. My family members sent us at kb airport n unexpectedly i cried cause i've never been apart from my family before. But that tears doesnt last cause in the plane i was too worried bout the 14 hours long of journey with my motion sickness to add with.I finished watching 6 movies in the plane n not to mentioned all types of games i've played. At last,we arrived at Ireland.i was pretty excited till the cold air hit my face..it was 5 a.m there with temp below 0..

At the airport

At 7 a.m,we arrived at my sis' house n i was freaking cold that i could see my hand shaking. I slept for bout 12 hrs cause of jetlag n only get up to eat.The next day,we when to Dublin which took an hour of journey from my sis' house. Once there i felt like dreaming cause we r the only one with tudung n i'm proud,haha.

One of the street there

Living there for 3 and half months got me eating fish based food (i hate it) ,BREAD n PASTRIES which later grown on me after some time. Every morning when my sis went to work,i walked to the mart which is 500m from the house, i got there so often till the cashier knows my name. I used to hate the weathers there but now i'm missing it,silly me! Here's some proof shots...

Fish n Chips In my arm...haha

Picnic Time!!

Me n my chubby niece, Mia

1 euro for the view

Do U Deserve Me As Friend?

Why would discrimination happened??? Eventhough i kept asking this question, i still havent got the answer. Some people just like to differentiate between friends. They choose to be with the one that come with package,the one that have the look and the one that would benefits them during their hardships. To me this is a total unfairness. How could they? Being friend with someone means that you would be there with them anywhere n anyhow, u cant treat them like they're just a visiting place. Only be with them when u dont have anyone by ur side, doesnt it seem very desperate? For all these 18 years i've been living on earth, i only encounters a few with the heart. Maybe they will laugh with me when i laugh, but they may not be crying with me when i cry. Experiences matured me over time, i was able to see through the crowd who are my true friends n who are just hiding behind those innocent masks.  

To whom that live with this feelings, please i'm begging u to come to ur senses. The world is on ur side today, but remember nothing last forever. The one that u always ignore, hate n look down to today may be the one that u'll seek for help tomorrow ,so, dont u dare think highly of urself. As for some of my friends, thanks for being part of my destiny n i wish that u would be here for good. I dont show my abilities for u guys to fully acknowlegde it yet cause ISLAM forbid showing off,so, please do something that'll make u guys deserve to be a part of my life....